Friends!!!! I don’t even know where to begin! Lets start worst to best 😜 well Mom fell today. Smack dab on her darn head. Because she can’t use her left arm, she couldn’t stop it. Hit like a ton of bricks. Her knees like like a two year olds and she has an egg on her noggin. The good news, it was the ‘good’ side! She is fine! 👍👍👍 and she had a cat scan immediately and they didn’t see anything! The bad news, she forgot she was paralyzed and tried to get her remote. Well, she said she tried to get her remote, but the nurse said she didn’t see anything on the floor so who knows. Anyway, she’s fine! Phew! Sooooo – this new lady is my MOM. I mean, she is THERE. More than ever. I am so freaking excited – I don’t even know what to do. She is alive! Her twinkle/spark is back in her beautiful brown eyes! Her eyes are big and open! She’s not the quiet, emotionless, blahhhh person that she was before this surgery. I swear to GOD! She moved her left leg today when I asked her on command. In fact, she lifted it right up off the damn bed! She is concerned about her left fingers curling up and was trying to straighten them with her right hand! I said, Mom, you never cared about this side before! She said, it’s because she never looked left!! She said she hates that her fingers are curling up and needs to call Angel (her therapist at Phoebe) right away!! She said she is sick of laying around and doing nothing! She wants to get up, get out, move around! Maybe a little too much! She used her remote today for the first time I ever saw! Changed channels, adjusted the volume! We had real conversations! She showed emotion when I showed videos of the kids! I mean – she is IN THERE. I’m so happy! So so so happy! She is self aware! She is my MOM! She talks louder. Her sense of humor (and then some) is back! She is louder! Her voice is almost back! She swallowed pills today and is moving to a chopped diet! I could just keep going and going but I think you get it. I’m sorry – I just can’t contain my excitement! I want to get her back to Phoebe and back to rehab and see what this new woman can DO! OMG!!
BUT! She is still very, very confused! Doesn’t know where she is right now. Told me the other day she has three arms (and one is a MAN grabber! LOL). I had to repeat things over and over such as where she is, where phoebe is, how long she’s been there, little things. Big freaking deal! I had to do that last year 😉 so, I am over the moon happy! She is feisty though and this is the part that scares me. It’s like she wasn’t alive the past 4 months. She is just now realizing she is paralyzed, and tries to do stuff that she forgets she can’t do. Her filter is super busted. I mean she curses, says people are stupid that she would NEVER talk about, said something semi racist today! Tried to yank her IV out because she thought Max and Molly were on their way in and it would scare them….Yeah! There is still a lot going on, but I will take this fun feisty lady over that lifeless, dull lady ANY day. As long as she can control herself and doesn’t hurt herself. What the heck!!! This is the weirdest thing ever! If you have visited her and notice a difference, please let me know – I don’t want to be delusional here!! Thanks! Gahhhhh! I’m so excited!!
What I’m NOT excited about, is the fact that SSI will pay her less than 19,000 a year. That’s it! Her only source of income. For real. Unbelievable! But it is what it is! We will make it work!!! Even that can’t ruin this happiness 😍😘😍😘 have a wonderful night!! I think I will fall asleep with this stupid smile on my face tonight! And before I go, a huge thanks to my SIL for all of the help packing today! Mwah! 💋